wish list

i said i was taking a hiatus from the blog but this is my blog and i do what i want. here's my wish list. i wish there was some magical elf who could grant the following:

1. a job- weekends only and something i wouldnt mind doing like sephora

2. a lamp- something to make my youtube tutorials worth the upload time. the lighting in my room sucks and i dont think all 3 of my viewers get the full effect

3. cash- if i cant get the job i want, i just want the money that would have come with it

4. a wii- i probably would never finish grad school if i had one but that's a risk i'm willing to take

5. a boyfriend- omg, did i just say that?! yea. more on that topic to come. i actually might be lying about that being on the list

6. car repairs. i got that mirror fixed but um, there have been more unfortunate events. some my fault; others, not at all

7. hangover and inglorious basterds on dvd

i HATE humans

granted, i was doing inappropriate activities. and yes, i should have flipped my side mirror in since that's what that feature is for and i have known this for the x amount of years since my stupid ass neighbor knocked my brother's side mirror off his car during a parking fail. but does that really make it ok for me to walk out to my car (endearingly named "stewie") to find my driver side mirror dangling and cracked?

when i saw it, i first did a double take b/c i thought i was somehow high even though my companion was not smoking during our time together (he's just that much of a weedhead; i take that back. it was mean and untrue. he doesnt smoke THAT much). soon after i just felt as if i was some pregnant 14 year old girl. the lecture played in my head like "were those few seconds of pleasure worth all this pain?" i'm such a drama queen, i know. but i started hyperventilating and crying and my companion (im going to keep calling him that b/c i like that word right now) was like "calm down". at first, he was not at all soothing or comforting and so i started crying more then i guess he used the daddy skills i didnt know he had despite having a kid. for a little bit i felt safe and secure and then i looked at it again and wanted to kill myself.

im just angry right now. im supposed to be on a break but here i am on my blog. i hope their car gets totalled. that is much more rational than my first statement, "i hope they get in a car accident and die". nope, since i was in no way physically hurt, it's only reasonable for me to wish bad things on their vehicle but not in equal proportion. i hope their car DIES. i hope they dont have the money to get a new one. honestly, as wide as that street was, there was no reason for them ever to be that close to my car unless another car was coming and based on the location and time of night, that was highly unlikely. they fail and they dont deserve the same rights as functional human beings.

in my absence

fyi, you can still keep up with me over the next few weeks. though i wont be posting here, i plan to add more videos to youtube. subscribe to my youtube channel for product reviews, tutorials and whatever: http://www.youtube.com/user/ashleya1002 . i recommend you check it out for videos you may have missed here and also for ones i never posted here. peace until 2010!