type of guy i go for? almost any guy who shows me interest and isnt terrible to look at. i give too much too soon (not just referring to sex) and i inevitably get my feelings hurt. you would think i'd learn by now but i tend not to catch myself until it's too late. i tell myself that im not going to do this and that and what do i do? this AND that. im thinking that i not only have to change my behavior but i have to change who i behave toward.
being born without patience is a factor yet again. what i need to do is calm myself down and WAIT. if this dude doesnt know how to act, i need to wait for the one who does. instead, i put up with the bullshit as if ive taken some sacred vow of loyalty.
i used to think my standards were too high but at the same time, i see evidence that men who do right exist. problem is, some chick has usually snatched his ass up. no one comes to mind who acts right and is single. if i were able to think of someone, i could 73% guarantee he is not interested in me.
maybe, just maybe my scope and self-esteem is too low. idk.