breaks my heart

Monday, November 10, 2008
maybe i feel too much. there was a time where i was almost completely numb. i thought there was something wrong with that. now i long for that time where i had no feelings. because it was then i couldnt be hurt. i could be annoyed, tired, bored, but not hurt. i couldn't feel love; for anyone else or anyone else's love towards me. it felt...un-right.

somehow, i feel feelings now. and they get hurt. alot. i can't control it. stuff that i don't think should hurt hurts. stuff that never really mattered to me.

my heart must still be "broken". my emotions must still be displaced and mixed up. my soul just does not feel right.

5 thought(s):

Da Hunni Toya said...

AWWW I FEEL THE SAME WAY SOMETIMES

Brown Girl Gumbo said...

We can all relate. It's good that you have feelings, it's what makes us human. Things will get better! ;-)

Product Junkie Diva said...

Hey Antithesis
I am with BGG. Feelings are part of a take it or leave it deal, in order to feel the love, good time, excitement and all of those other good things, we have to feel the hurt and pain when that comes along too. Just a thing we all unfortunately have to experience at one point or another.
Hang in there....
PJD

T said...

Feeling feelings is an awesome thing because you can feel just as much joy as you do pain. It's like that Diane Keaton movie, Something's Gotta Give. Have you seen that. It's JUST like that.

WiZ said...

dang girl. i really hope your heart heals from all the hurt and pain you have gone through.