wish list

i said i was taking a hiatus from the blog but this is my blog and i do what i want. here's my wish list. i wish there was some magical elf who could grant the following:

1. a job- weekends only and something i wouldnt mind doing like sephora

2. a lamp- something to make my youtube tutorials worth the upload time. the lighting in my room sucks and i dont think all 3 of my viewers get the full effect

3. cash- if i cant get the job i want, i just want the money that would have come with it

4. a wii- i probably would never finish grad school if i had one but that's a risk i'm willing to take

5. a boyfriend- omg, did i just say that?! yea. more on that topic to come. i actually might be lying about that being on the list

6. car repairs. i got that mirror fixed but um, there have been more unfortunate events. some my fault; others, not at all

7. hangover and inglorious basterds on dvd

i HATE humans

granted, i was doing inappropriate activities. and yes, i should have flipped my side mirror in since that's what that feature is for and i have known this for the x amount of years since my stupid ass neighbor knocked my brother's side mirror off his car during a parking fail. but does that really make it ok for me to walk out to my car (endearingly named "stewie") to find my driver side mirror dangling and cracked?

when i saw it, i first did a double take b/c i thought i was somehow high even though my companion was not smoking during our time together (he's just that much of a weedhead; i take that back. it was mean and untrue. he doesnt smoke THAT much). soon after i just felt as if i was some pregnant 14 year old girl. the lecture played in my head like "were those few seconds of pleasure worth all this pain?" i'm such a drama queen, i know. but i started hyperventilating and crying and my companion (im going to keep calling him that b/c i like that word right now) was like "calm down". at first, he was not at all soothing or comforting and so i started crying more then i guess he used the daddy skills i didnt know he had despite having a kid. for a little bit i felt safe and secure and then i looked at it again and wanted to kill myself.

im just angry right now. im supposed to be on a break but here i am on my blog. i hope their car gets totalled. that is much more rational than my first statement, "i hope they get in a car accident and die". nope, since i was in no way physically hurt, it's only reasonable for me to wish bad things on their vehicle but not in equal proportion. i hope their car DIES. i hope they dont have the money to get a new one. honestly, as wide as that street was, there was no reason for them ever to be that close to my car unless another car was coming and based on the location and time of night, that was highly unlikely. they fail and they dont deserve the same rights as functional human beings.

in my absence

fyi, you can still keep up with me over the next few weeks. though i wont be posting here, i plan to add more videos to youtube. subscribe to my youtube channel for product reviews, tutorials and whatever: http://www.youtube.com/user/ashleya1002 . i recommend you check it out for videos you may have missed here and also for ones i never posted here. peace until 2010!

winter vacation

this year i dont get winter break. this is the first time in ever school doesnt just cease for me. i get a break from classes but i have other responsibilities for internship and i only get like a week to myself to do nothing. so im implementing winter break here on my blog. enjoy what's left of 2009! i'll see ya'll next year. (catch up on posts you missed and, as always, email me or catch me on twitter!)

and then there's more

here are the rest of my lippies. video's a little dark and choppy, but you all will deal, right? right.

swag surfin: video tutorial

quick tutorial of the look i did on 6.22.09

peek in my closet: chillin w/ my big sis

black beret-h&m

plaid shirt (in navy and black)- forever21

skinny jeans- ny&co

ugg boots-nordstrom

plumicity

let's do it again

as we close out 2009, i want to go the way of a few beauty bloggers i've come across. over the year, i've had a chance to try a few things. some products are collecting dust while others are in heavy rotation. here's a list of products i liked this year and found myself habitually using. i'll probably buy all of these again. i've done a review of most of these but if you want to know more about any of the items listed, feel free to contact me.

FACE

wash- cetaphil daily facial cleanser

foundation- mac studio fix fluid SPF15 NC50

powder- mineralize skinfinish dark

shine control- mac blot powder

primer- smashbox photofinish light

exfoliator- mac volcanic ash exfoliator

makeup remover- mac cleanse off oil

EYES

mascara- maybelline colossal lash

brow grooming kit- ecotools

shadow- mac

liner- MUFE pencils/ maybelline liquid liner/ mac fluidline

makeup remover- still searching...lancome bi-facil is kinda nice

BODY

lotion- jergens natural glow firming (for summer)/ vaseline clinical therapy (for winter)

shave gel- skintimate strawberry tangerine twist with olive butter and vitamin E

antiperspirant- clinique deodorant

after workout body wash- dr bronner's liquid soap

soap- dove white bar

MULTI-USE

pigment- mac

natural products- aloe vera juice and gel, rose water, glycerin

HAIR

heat protector- tresemme thermal creations heat tamer spray

moisturizer- silk elements silken child moisturizing creme

scalp care- roots of nature shea butter green tea stimulating scalp oil

leave-in- optimum care tangle defense

protein treatment- aphogee 2-min reconstructor

moisturizing conditioner- neutrogena triple moisture deep recovery mask

clarifying shampoo- V05

MANI/PEDI

polish- OPI

top coal- OPI

nail art- art deco nail art lacquer

foot care- pedegg

moisturizer- cetaphil

mattifying top coat- china glaze matte magic

...of the month

the makeup product of the month is: lancome virtuose mascara in royal gold

idk y the swatch is like that b/c it looks blue w/ gold sparkle

i won this from the lancome blog and im so glad i did. this blue mascara with gold flecks is the bit of flare i needed. it's a change from regular black but it's not super dramatic. i don't mind it b/c i dont think anyone else notices but i like it. it's something for me and it's not as overpowering as thick black mascara can be when you do a blue look on the eyes. sometimes, i dont want bare lashes but i also dont want my lashes so dark it turns my look into an evening look when im just going to school or internship. the formula isnt flakey on my lashes and doesnt coat too thick. my lashes feel soft to the touch but there is added length and if you look closely, there is a little sparkle. this product is on the "beauty bye-bye" section of the lancome website so try to grab one before theyre all gone. i encourage you not to shy away from colored mascara.

peek in my closet: weekend shopping

mossimo black faux leather moto jacket from target

blouse from tjmaxx

black skinny jeans from ny&co.

arizona mid-calf faux suede boots from jcpenney

black h&m beret

product review

do i need counseling?

*do not link this post to any of my professors*

honestly, not everyone will benefit from counseling. for me to say everyone could use counseling is like sayin everyone could use iron pills. i dont even think everyone needs a multivitamin. personally, they make me nauseous no matter what so...yea. you may benefit from counseling if:

• you have a basic, unbiased view of mental health- that is rare because of the history of the medical and mental health field and social stigma associated with mental illness
• you have an issue impairing your daily functioning- performance at school or work dwindling because of x.y, and z, going on with you? go work through that.
• you are willing to to try out a few people to find a good match- you dont have to go with the first name in the phone book. counselors have different strengths and theoretical orientations that must be considered in addition to meeting the criteria of not having a personality clash. everyone with a license isn't a good clinician
• you can understand that the counselor is not some all-knowing guru and that you will have to do some work because you already have the solution- the counselor is just there to facilitate that inner quest and to collaborate with you to resolve your issue. we have some knowledge but we're not GOD. and if you have some life-altering epiphany, we'll be there to ensure a smooth landing.
• you need a space for support and non-judgemental, non-directive listening- some people do not have adequate social support and counselors can fill that void. that's kinda what i am for my client which is lame but it's better than if he killed himself.

as always, i'm willing to answer your questions as best i can about counseling and mental health. remember i'm a student, so i may not know everything but i can point you in the direction to find out more. also, just so you know, this post is what i believe and not necessarily what i've been taught (just in case some GW folks spot this post).

in theaters...

i have to take time to endorse this movie. Precious was great! it almost moved me to tears. i read the novel about 4 years ago and then a while later i was informed they would make it into a movie. i didnt re-read the novel b/c the copy i had was borrowed from a friend and i assumed with the film announcement, libraries would not be able to keep it. if you haven't already, read the book. afterwards, go see the movie. i normally do not like the film versions of books but this one does such a good job that i almost say it doesn't matter what order in which you read and watch. regardless, i still want you to do both. have you read/watched? what were your thoughts?the movie deserves an oscar just for featuring lenny kravitz!

...of the month

fotd of the month is my twitter profile pic. i selected this for the "of the month post", not because im vain but because i made a very simple, natural-looking makeup look for class and other days when im just not into it.

here's the step-by-step, in case you're interested. it seems like a lot, huh?

1. moisturize as usual

2. apply smashbox photofinish primer light

3. too faced shadow insurance on lids

4. fill brows using coordinating color. i used mac "smut" e/s

5. follow brow above and below with concealer using flat brush. i used mac studiofinish spf 35 in NW45

6. apply a highlight color beneath brow from arch outward and on lid from iris outward. i used mac "era" e/s

7. between highlight color, apply skintone shadow. i used mac mineralize skinfinsh dark

8. line lid with liquid eyeliner and lower lash line with gel eyeliner. i used maybelline liquid liner and mac fluidline in "blacktrack"

9. *optional*apply eyeshadow on lower lid to match outfit. you can really see but i used mac e/s in "humid" (it's green).

10. apply a light powder foundation to face. i used mineralize skinfinish dark

11. add mascara. i used mac dazzlelash

12. apply lip gloss. i used sephora "rosy glow" from the beauty insider bday gift.

around the blogosphere

1. take 20% off @ bloomies
2. take 30% off @ urban decay
3. PJD gives you a review and shows you how to do it yourself
4. Brittany from clumps of mascara loves her body and so should you!
5. check out this festive polish from NARS for the holidays
6. if you think amerie looked cute in complex mag, you can snag her look. (just dont buy the album)

random hump day bonus

this was one of my favorite shows as a kid. do you remember rescue 911? i believe it came on saturday nights. idk b/c i was kinda young. my brother would always turn it on for me after i whined, "turn. on. rescue 911". and i felt like "rescue" was a big word and i knew what it meant but could hardly say it. anyway, something is really wrong with my brother and me b/c we thought this show was funnier than our saturday morning cartoons. i will never forget the following episodes:

1. the one where the mother went to get into the shower and had just turned on the washer machine. i swear the little boy said "im dirty, too" and got his ass in the damn washer
2. this one was actually disturbing and we still laughed. he was playing with his brother but they were supposed to be brushing their teeth. so their chasing each other and one boy runs into a wall (#fail) and the tooth brush got stuck in his throat blocking his airway. that was so nasty but we laughed.
3. this one made me stop laughing and afraid to go on white water rafting trips. cant remember exactly what happened on this one. i think they went over a waterfall and one or two girls actually died.

peek in my closet: grad student uniform

• h&m sweater coat
• old navy 3/4 sleeve 3-button tee
• h&m jeans
• dsw free tote w/ $25 purchase (i got michael kors flats on clearance for $25 + tax)

barbie nails

made this video on 10/31

monday bonus!!!!!!

look at my attempt to recreate rih-rih's 20/20 interview look. it may have helped had i watched the interview. #dontjudgeme

chobani greek yogurt

i dont talk about food often here but i had to warn you guys. i've only had greek yogurt one other time and it was from trader joes and it was delish! so when my dad said he brought home a "different" kind of yogurt from my prefered yoplait, i was ok with it. i normally like vanilla yogurt (not to be mistaken for plain *death*) so i tried the vanilla version of the all natural chobani brand. GROSS. it's like plain yogurt w/ a hint of vanilla. if you have ever had plain yogurt, you know that is something you don't wanna do again unless ur making smoothies using real fruit or something. he picked up some other varieties, so i'll give another flavor a chance but right now, im not into. gimme the brands i've heard of full of chemicals that are killing me because as of right now, i cant do it with this super healthy version.

*update* i tried the strawberry and it's edible but im still gonna say no to this yogurt. you mess up vanilla and i want nothing to do with you.

(worst) ...of the month

Music: Amerie "love&war"

looks cute in this month's essence but that won't help album sales

My initial response to this effort- *blank stare*. "Why r u" still recording?! Who approved this mess which is "dangerous" to my ears? I "heard em all" and each track is more audibly offensive than the previous. #iCant and #iWont

around the blogosphere

• luvvie shares info on celeb twitter accounts
• T chronicles her experience with online dating
• looking for a dupe for MUFE star powders? check out scandelous beauty blog
• Benefit from this great deal with more info at beauty and the blog
• have you tried qhemet biologics conditioner? because hairlicious thinks you should.

peek in my closet

ha! carrie bradshaw's closet

so i'm going to go 'head w/ the peek in my closet series. before we start here's some stats you might find useful (or maybe not):

1. i will shop pretty much anywhere unless the prices are consistently out of my budget even with a sale/coupon and unless the clothes look/feel cheap
2. my tops are usually size L/XL or 12/14 with a couple (literally 2, i think) of M thrown in the mix
3. on the bottom, i'm pretty consistently a 10/12 and i have some 14's that are too big and i wear 'em anyway
4. i dont think i have any number sized dresses and the dresses i have are M and L
5. my shoes are 8, 8 1/2, and 9
6. i'm 5'3 1/2" tall so i just say 5'4"

so basically, i'm all over the place in sizes and i'm short. i like to think that i know my limitations so i can't wear everything that's how right now, but i'll show you all what i do own and how i wear it. i'll ask you how to wear an item, too. also, go ahead and comment or email me requests for events, occassions, and such.

digit-al

my first video of my nail polish series. a little different from my other videos since it's not a tutorial (i dont think i need to show people how to paint their nails).

happy halloween!

a tutorial would take longer than the 10 minutes youtube allows, so if you would like details and directions, just email me or leave me a comment with your contact info!

...of the month

trying to get back on the features i started a while back. the "...of the month" spot for october is a beauty product: MAC's pigments. specifically, i'm featuring MAC pigment in "cocomotion". i love the name. i used "cocomotion" in the "as luck would have it" tutorial, last week. i've been a pretty loyal MAC fan for over a year now and cocomotion was my first pigment. WTF was i waiting on? here are the reasons i love pigments now:

*they cost a little more than eye shadow but they should because they're much bigger

*they last FOREVER. i mean it when i say a little goes a long way as far a color payoff (also makes me feel better about them being $20)

*they're not just for eyes- mix some in with your lotion for and it's a bronzer. you can also mix it in with your favorite lip gloss. there are more uses; you can do a google search for it.

* needless to say, they are SOOOOOOO pretty

do you use pigments? what do you like about them? if you haven't tried them yet, would you?

for kids and kids @ heart

who does halloween? i didn't used to but the past 2 years, ive gotten into it. this year, i'm attending a party as "workout barbie". my original idea was "80's workout video instructor" but that name was too long. then i didnt wanna be just 80's b/c i'd just look like i came out of an american apparel ad. so then i was like "what's more 80's (for me, at least) than barbie?" i figured then, i could wear pounds of makeup and it would be socially acceptable. i love the irony of this since im not skinny (or in shape for that matter), im not tall, and im not white and blonde. im so excited to wear "spandex, ALL spandex". are you dressing up this year?

faces on the milk carton

the following people havent even been featured on the mailings that be like "have you seen me?". where are they?

• rah digga- formerly of flipmode squad; rolled with busta rhymes
• mia x- was w/ mystikal and master p and them "make em say ugghhhhh"
• master p- lil romeo's daddy
• kel- i seent, yes seent, kenan unfunny ass on SNL but where kel?
• the little boy from nickelodeon's "my brother and me"-i last heard him sitting behind me at the brother/sister exhange at morehouse freshman year and never saw him again
• charmaine from "a different world"

do you know these people's whereabouts? who am i still forgetting?

as luck would have it: video tutorial

another installment of Tutorial Tuesdays :)

guest feature!!!!!

this video isn't me. it's my friend (a person i actually know in real life, wow!) doing her first youtube makeup video. it's not really a tutorial. she's looking for suggestions on her eye makeup for halloween. i left a comment. so comment her up, please!

new series

i think im going to start yet another series here on my blog. i know i havent been consistent with any new series ive developed. i cant promise i'll get back to the "of the month" posts and such but i want to know your thoughts on this new idea of mine. this one is "peek in my closet". i'll show you some of my favorite clothes, shoes, and accessories and i might throw together some full outfits. what do ya think?

i gotta say this

pjd asked me to do a relationship video but this can't wait. plus i have no relationships to speak of so...yea. here's my rant/vent list for the week:

1. if you start off with "can i ask you a question?" the answer is: "no thank you"
2. if you proceed with "can you do me a favor?" the answer is "absolutely not"
3. then you say "can you put this number in your phone?" uh: "motherfucker, for what?!" (readers should know by now that i dont initiate telephone communication with males)
4. you need to properly introduce yourself to me like a respectable adult or i will not respect you
5. if i dont respect you, there is nothing more to discuss *kanye shrug*
6. do you watch 30 rock? well if you approach me with shades on and do not remove them to start talking, "that's a deal-breaker!"
7. if i'm standing at the bus stop, dont offer me a ride. i have a car. if it was economically and logistically feasible, i'd drive where im going. i dont need a ride from you so i can be cut up in some filthy basement and never heard from again.
8. your line is "you're too pretty to be on public transportation"? really? only ugly people should take the bus? that is mostly true but unless you're providing transportation for the rest of my life, that line is bullshit. and if you're able to do that, what the fuck do you do all day? good day, sir.
9. i pose this question to the world still: what the hell is the honking of the horn for? AND you almost ran into the back of that car ahead of you so..."pay attention puhlease"
10. a date is not sitting in your dirty apartment...and don't ask me where i want to go for the first date. you asked for my time. further, the movies is not a date. i know as much about you in those 2 hours as i know about the fat, bald guy in the back row. thanks for the flick and the icee, though!

*bonus* on a first date, don't rattle off all the qualities you want in a woman and the reasons your last few attempts at a relationship failed. i'm bored and i hate your life. not a good way to kick things off.

requests

leave comments or email me the video tutorials you'd like to request. don't forget. naw, you're not gonna forget.

royaltease: purple and gold video tutorial

this was requested by T. it's a look i did in this post.

i had to break this up into two video's b/c youtube won't allow vids over 10 mins. i apologize if the transition isn't smooth; i got frustrated and quit and just chopped it. anyway, ENJOY and your questions/requests are always welcome!

oh, and yes you may go IN on how my hair looks. like, what gives me the right...? lol!

product review

this review is actually on an appliance. i bought a soft bonnet dryer b/c i think im really going to commit to doing my own hair with the exception of my relaxer. i cant and i wont w/ that. i got the REVLON amber waves ionic dryer from walgreens for $40. i picked this one b/c after 5 stores, this was the only one that had what i was looking for and this was the only kind they had. i decided to purchase simply b/c there was a black model on the box (i'm that easy). my mom was like, "they still make the soft ones?" she has this big blue hard one that she had at least before i was born and it still works. i miss when things lasted forever like that air conditioner we had...

anyway, i expected this thing to be a punk but nope, not really. gets about as hot as the ones in the salon. well, not quite as hot, which is fine with me b/c i die under there getting rollersets from the hair cuttery. i should have known b/c i have a revlon hand held dryer i picked up when i was in undergrad that would be absolutely perfect if it had a comb attachment but im not too pressed b/c those attachments always break anyway. my issue is, the heat is all concentrated in the rear so after being under there since easters (an hour) the top of my head was still damp. so, if you are in the market for a sit-under dryer and dont really want one of the hard ones where your movement is much more restricted, i'm not sure i'd recommend this one.

real quick: picky nails!

my nails only grow when polished. i dont have to shape them and they tend to grow super fast. the problem is they only keep certain polishes on them. said polishes are usually bright or pale in color. black other dark shades of blue, green, etc. chip and peel off. base coat, top coat, watever. they dont care. i dont wanna wear this pale, white-ish cotton candy pink in these fall/winter months. any suggestions?

in all my years of school...

i never really learned how to study. in cognitive psychology i learned about stuff like "state-dependent learning". the principle behind that is, you are more likely to recall information in the same way you learned it so if you study after a night a drinking, your best case scenario is to go out drinking the night before your test as well. also, you should study material in random order since it's likely to not appear in the order it was taught on the test. example: the test is over chapters 1, 2, 3, and 7 and it was probably presented in class in that order but it might not necessarily appear on the test in that order. so, study the chapters in random order.

i tested that one out in undergrad. friday, i did it in the order it was taught. saturday, chapters 7, 2, 1, 3. sunday, reverse order. i got an A and studied that way for the rest of my undergrad career. too bad i didn't know about that until Junior year and didnt have many tests left.

and those are my only study tips. do you have any?

how many showers do you get a day?

there are people who say "drinking water is like giving your insides a shower". we spend a lot of time on the cleanliness and beauty of our exterior but some of us fall short of keeping our insides healthy. let me describe my insides to you: if drinking water is like giving my insides a shower, my insides are like those little kids who run the water for a little while and hop in just long enough to get wet and hop out!

i can fill up on juice (both 100% juice and all high fructose corn syrup versions) all day long. some days i recognize this and think "that's why i can't lose weight". i consume far less juice now and usually it's 100% juice but still i've been doing p90x for 6 weeks and only lost 10 lbs. that's the ten i lost last time and gained back b/c i started working out and just eating whatever. i want to do better with my water and most days i mean well. i'll throw a bottle in my bag before leaving the house. i may get 3/4 of the way through a 16 oz. bottle which is just shameful. i usually don't let myself drink anything else and still i don't finish.

how many showers do you get in a day? meaning, what do you do to make sure you get your proper intake of h2o? you can also tell me how often you bathe if you want; soap or body wash? what kind?

...in a past life

people say often stuff like "oh that little girl has been here before" or "you must have been such-and-such in a past life" but to what extent do you believe that? i know there are those who believe in reincarnation but for some reason i was under the impression that you come back as something else every time like a butterfly. could you come back as human each time?

i'm pretty sure my client is having delusions, a symptom of his diagnosed illness, when he refers to events of a past life. but then how can i really know when people say stuff like that all the time? is it normal as long as you dont get too elaborate with it? are people just saying it in jest and it's only when you deeply and truly believe that certain things happened to you that you are "crazy"? plus for those who believe in reincarnation, do you actually know what you were when you were "here before"?

i really wanted to ask my client how he died each time (he'd been several different people) but i don't think we're supposed to go along with the delusions.

in class today

my professor talked about the different types of married couples. for the sake of this post, the other types arent important. when she finished she got to what i am: the isolate. her words were "this person cannot live with another human being". that is what i always say! i think i've said it here. she went on to say that this person will not marry and even has trouble forming lasting relationships. ME. and then she took it further and said that the isolate even has trouble with meaningful friendships. ABSOLUTELY ME. i thought i was the only one in the world but they put together a category for the me's of the world. i dont know if im glad im not alone in this or sad that im not as unique as i once thought.

counseling is hard

there are some people who think mental health is a bunch of bull. "it's not an exact science" they say. "it's guess work" they might believe. they're like "i dont wanna be on medication" but if the doctor told them they needed to take a pill for high blood pressure, they'd fill that prescription. for real, i'm not big on medication b/c of psychometric history but i understand the case for psychiatric meds (don't tell my professors i said that).

counseling is hard and i really dont care what anyone has to say. it's a legitimate profession like any other. it's not just sitting around talking. it's not whatever preconcieved notion people have without delving deeper into the actual practices and such.

i cant stand when people marginalize what they dont understand. it irritates me not just with this but with anything. anytime someone has a differing opinion from the masses, there is something wrong with that person? i dont like that logic. maybe it's something wrong with the masses for being mindless drones and followers. i just needed to vent. thanks.

simply smokey: video tutorial

i dont have all of forever to perfect a smokey eye so i do mine super simple and super quick.

lessons in psychotherapy

ok, boys and girls. let me share a little lesson with you in therapy. who here has heard of the term "transference"? basically, it's when a client 'transfers' attributes to the counselor that were seen in some other significant figure in their life. for instance, a client may react to me in our counseling relationship as he does with his significant other b/c something i say or do reminds him of that interaction.

i'm so glad that i only have one more session with a client who is clearly exhibiting some transference. that's really the clinical, professional way of saying "i can't wait 'til this n-word is done so he can stop flirting w/ me". i'm not taking this personally because 1. he's a male, 2. he's an aquarius (a charming, flirtatious sign which happens to supposedly be compatible with my sign, libra), 3. he's criminal-minded. and you know criminals will try to get over on whomever and it's a plus if the person is of the opposite sex 'cause they can simply use sex/attraction as a weapon.

halloween preview

i made myself into a barbie. what do you think? (i erased my eyebrows and drew new ones if you're wondering why they look crazy. gotta work on that part.)

soon

i have a big "to do" list but, as promised, i will get a real video tutorial out next week. i really wish i had columbus day off so i could work on it but higher education is phasing out the observance of that non-holiday. i never got the day off at spelman while my friends at majority schools did. now, it looks like GW will completely ignore it. to make matters worse, i have a mid-term exam on monday. so between studying, scheduled maintenance, laundry, and football, i will get out to you the video i suspect will take the longest. stay tuned for the purple and gold "laker" look i did back in a june post. i'll do the complete look since i did my foundation differently and had on blush and all that. see ya soon.

my first video

*warning*: this video SUCKS but i needed to get this foundation video out of the way so my tutorials can be quick and simple and just focus on the eyes.

so...please excuse:

• my hair being wrapped-just worked out and i have no idea what woodland creatures are hiding under there
• my blah attitude- when i have to do boring things (like just foundation) the boredom shows. can't help it. one of the things i need to work on
• there being no music- in future vids, i'll probably give you a musical intro at least

oh, and i will show you all how i really do my brows in another video. ok, try to ENJOY!

i decided

ANNOUNCEMENT: video tutorials coming soon!

Frequency will depend on how into it everyone is.

I'll start with basics and tools I typically use.

I'll accept requests; just send me an email or leave a comment. You might say "do something inspired by a peacock feather" or you might have a look you want me to recreate you saw on a celeb. I'll try my best w/ what I have. Just remember, I'm no pro so it won't be exact.

Tell me what you think about this new feature in the comments.

i need to get out more

this saturday while everyone was participating in aids walk and other productive activity, i went to my sister's house. my sister, brother-in-law, and two nieces rarely get out of the house unless my older niece has a track meet or something and my sister and i agree that that should change. we went to play putt-putt golf and they had batting cages so we participated in that, too. (my hand STILL hurts, #fail).

a week or so ago, my friend was in town for work and he took me bowling. it was an expensive two games of bowling, pizza and drinks but fun none-the-less and he paid so i cant complain.

i had two very enjoyable outings that didn't involve me sweating my hair out from just standing still, having partial drinks spilled on me, rude b*tches stepping on my toes, etc. that comes with the club (which ya'll know i don't really ever enjoy). i say all that to say, i need to go out and do more ACTIVITIES. i want to significantly cut back on the binges of empty calories going out to eat and drinking at the club.

what else can i do on the weekends? i'm interested in things to do during the daylight hours and evenings/late night.

real quick: fotd

using barbie loves stila all doll'd up palette

didnt feel like wearing foundation. just through on one of the sephora bday lip glosses. got a long day ahead of me. going to the post office to drop T's prize in the mail and then to school until 9pm. oh yea, i can feel your excitement for me through the interwebs. ttyl.

im 2 for 2

watergate hotel, washington dc

i'm gonna be a bridesmaid in another sibling's wedding. my brother's fiancee called and asked me to be in the wedding. i was a bridesmaid for my sister in '05 so after this i'm DONE. unless, of course they approve gay marriage and my other brother for whatever reason decides to get married. he's probably not interested in marriage so i think we're in the clear. so...this is the last time *crosses fingers* i will don some prom-looking dress that i'll never wear again. the dress my sister picked out was really cute but when i posted the pic of me on facebook this one jerk was like "prom was over a year ago..."not that i cared but the dresses are generally prom-y and can be used interchangeably for either occasion. lucky for me, my future sister-in-law has picked a similar color scheme as my sister and i already know lilac looks lovely on me! (idk y it looks silver in that pic)

show me what you got

here's what i got for my bday:

• maxwell ticket (of, course)
• OPI nail polish in 'russian navy'

• barbie loves stila 'all doll'd up' palette

• personalized pen
• banana pudding : D
• check for $100
• compact mirror

and yes, i recommend both the palette and the polish

drum roll...

the winner of the "help me blow out the candles" giveaway is T! congrats, hun! email me your mailing address so i can ship your prize.

THANK YOU to those who entered and wished me a happy birthday. i thoroughly enjoyed maxwell, common and chrisette michelle; my mom's banana pudding, sequoia on the georgetown waterfront, and thoughtful gifts.

GIVEAWAY: help me blow out the candles!

i'm having a giveaway in honor of my 23rd birthday this friday, october 2. you can win this little wristlet/cosmetic bag which comes in a few of my favorite colors (all colors are my favorite). i snapped this photo of it on one of my favorite mags which features one of the people i find the most glamorous:

AND i've stuffed it with a few things:

• ULTA nail lacquer in "happy hour"- if that doesn't scream me, idk what does. i love a good half-priced drink. *formaldehyde- and toulene-free
• ELLE metal-free hair elastics- i keep millions of these 'cause i'm a ponytail-rockin' chick (before my haircut)
• Ms. Manicure mini salon boards- these emery boards can fit in your purse or even your wallet. i'm always snaging my nails when im not home and i dont have my tools w/ me.
• pop-up hair brush and mirror- it's purple and fits in your purse and serves more than one purpose. i LOVE to multi-task.
• Too Faced Lash Injection mini mascara- "extreme thickening and lengthening mascara" extreme and lashes? YES! love me some flare.
• Burt's Bees beeswax lip balm- if i wear no other make up, i will at least have some form of moisturizer for my lips. and this one's all organic and stuff. bonus!
• Victoria's Secret PINK! panties (black)- they let me get a free panty like monthly and i love boyshorts so i get them every time. i got these in size medium hoping most people who read my blog could fit them. too big? too small? vickies might let u exchange, idk.

this giveaway is open to everyone in the continental U.S. special consideration will be given to members of my blog fam (people who regularly comment and/or who already follow me on twitter; they get extra entries). Let me know you want to win this by leaving a comment on this post by midnight EST October 2, 2009. in your comment, let me know about your best (or worst) birthday yet! *winner will be chosen at random using one of those online generators

do you budget for the bullsh*t?

some of you may know that i'm going to the maxwell concert for my birthday this friday. wonderful. originally i wasn't going to go because i thought i would have internship that day and wouldn't leave in time to go home and get ready and go. this was before i had my first day and i should have realized that i'm at a ghetto site where people just don't come in the second half of the week, especially on friday. anyway, my dad said that sense i deal with crazy people all day and the stress of school i should make time to do stuff i enjoy so he would get me the tickets. at the late date that he said this the tickets in the very top row came out to be like $90 with taxes and fees. he said to put it on MY credit card and he's pay me back.

fast-foward a week or two later. my dad picks me up from my internship site nightly because it's actually in a bad neighborhood. not just the people are hood, it's physically in the hood. a woman was shoot and a subway employee was stabbed within days of each other within a few doors of my site. he decides to pick me up in my car because my mom is like "it sits all week, you need to drive it from time-to-time". i guess me driving it some weeknights and weekends isn't enough for her which i would agree with if it weren't 80+ degrees outside. so anyway, i get in the car and it wont start. the complete worst place to have that happen at 8 o'clock at night. and my dad just sittin' there like nothing is wrong like he just gonna wait it out. negative. so i call my mom but luckily one of the people who works at my site was still hanging around and gave us a jump and we got home.

the whole point to me sharing this is: now that my car needs a battery, he's not gonna pay for the maxwell ticket, a $90 ticket in the nosebleeds. i would be like whatever if 1. i was working somewhere 2. he hadnt already agreed to pay and i was already planning on going and would have paid that for a ticket (i wouldnt have) and 3. he had taken my car for the 30,000 mi. service between now and June when I first brought it to his attention because they probably could have told us the battery was low. now aint that some bullsh*t?

i am glad it happened when it did. because what if i was out alone? or worse with friends? it's worse with friends because these dumb heifers would be hollering like "who can give us a jump?!" yup, they'd let everyone know at the hood spot we just came out of (all i do with them is club) that we were stranded and could easily be robbed. instead of rationally calling someone we knew to come jump us and sitting quietly in the car like nothing is wrong...

basically, this boils down to: i didnt budget for the "if" in "life". don't forget to plan for "emergencies" when doing your budget.

me and my car when i first got him, december 05. aww, he didnt even have tags yet.

upcoming....

a giveaway will be announced on tuesday so look out!

around the blogosphere

Here's some of this week's best posts:

• the cheap chica shares how EASY it is to get involved during breast cancer awareness month
• temptalia covers the beauty on the emmy red carpet over several posts. start here
• eye-opening facts about Latisse are over at spoiled pretty
• BGG is just the cutest chick ever as she shares some beauty news moms-to-be can use
• support T as she does the good-est in the fight against AIDS
• keep up w/ the MAC collections? temptalia can help out if you don't.
• get 1-year of InStyle mag for the LOW

one day/eventually

i have some wish list items and these are just some things i hope i get for my birthday but im not gonna flat out ask people for anything. i really dont expect to get much of anything for my birthday. so i guess this is just stuff i plan to buy over time. what's on your wish list?

-MAC-

you knew they would be featured so i figured i'd put them first. and yes, this list is the longest

1. impassioned lipstick 2. cranberry lip liner and 3. eyeshadow 4. grain eyeshadow 5. lucky jade shade stick 6. penultimate eyeliner 7. coppering eyeshadow 8. velvetella lip liner 9. waveline fluidline 10. luscious spark dazzleglass creme 11. probably one more dazzleglass creme

-Sephora-

1. pencil brush 2. make up for ever lashes 3. really high end mascara 4. urban decay book of shadows II 5. urban decay 24/7 liners

-CVS-

1. cover girl lash blast luxe

Bath & Body Works

1. Patricia Wexler MD tinted moisturizer spf 30

can i be honest?

let me say some things that it's probably not ok to say to my professors and such. i just need to vent.

1. we're three weeks in. your vague scenarios are not gonna have us recalling specific disorders from the DSM-IV. let's be real, i dont plan on reading that large 750 pg book cover-to-cover...so just stop.

2. if i actively participate in class (raising my hand and responding twice when no one else would), don't call on me directly to respond to some obscurity at the end of a dense chapter...

3. it's a problem when only 2 of 10 students have a client in the campus counseling center. stop asking us to describe our clients to you. we all know everything there is to know about each other's clients and it's boring. think of something else to do during our time together.

4. my client is SO boring. i didnt realize it until my supervisor asked "do you find yourself bored in the session with him"? she hadnt even seen the video but just based on what i was telling her she was getting frustrated as hell. unacceptable. and he's been here forever and they just keep letting him rollover to new counselors when people graduate.

5. i really wish i had more clients in my caseload but clearly that wont happen 'til my classmates all get one. back to #3. why do 5 out of the 40 people total talking internship have clients right now? #fail.

scheduled maintenance

i refer to some of my beauty rituals as "scheduled maintenance". this includes: brows and other hair removal, pedicures, manicures, and hair washing and styling. my facebook statuses (when i was still on there) would read something like "...is overdue for scheduled maintenance". I'd usually be on my way to hair cuttery for a $25 rollerset or about to devote a saturday morning to self care.

i got my eyebrows threaded yesterday. went to a different stand in a different mall (im broke/cheap like that). they are the same people though 'cause they got the same flyer. it didn't hurt nearly as bad as the first time. the first time hurt worse than childbirth (as if i would know). this time was far less painful than waxing. didnt even tear up or get that lasting stinging like last time. imma have to start going back to her. plus, she did a great job for $10.

how do you groom your brows? would you try threading? what would be too much to pay?

on the yale girl and other snatchings

what if you got snatched? i don't have to worry about that because i'm not fittin' to go nowhere with you! you can have my car but you are not about to tell me to get up in my own trunk. nope. i need to be unconscious. you will just have to kill me where i stand because you not gonna take me to some nasty basement... i always think it's a nasty basement. i don't wanna be killed somewhere germy. i hate germs! wherever i already am will have to do because apparently, i was there on my own volition. and how dare you put someone in a wall? what year was that building erected? because that is the height of trife if there was asbestos (sp). see, no i'm gonna have to be killed in whatever dark parking lot i'm in or whatever. when you go to the second location they got more time to think of sick shit to do to you. and resources. and plus you might be there for days dying. i need to get that instant death if you gonna kill me. also, i don't do stupid shit if i can avoid it. i won't be wandering around unattended at midnight in bad neighborhoods. im just sayin'...

btw, did you ever read that book? i read it back when i really liked to read. cant remember what i thought of it. it's been that long. surprised i even remembered it just now.

everyone gets one

you are guaranteed a birth date and a death date. it sucks to know the exact day and time you'll die. also sucks not knowing but whatever. we know when the DC sniper will die: nov. 10. all i remember is my school being on lock down for 3 weeks. we would normally have off-campus lunch but instead the school ordered us pizza...every-damn-day. and i dont think they gave us nothing to drink, just pizza. once you came to school, you werent leaving til school let out and there was no loitering around the school. go STRAIGHT to the the metro station or bus or however you get home. i dont even think people could go to their internship sites during that time. can't remember. i remember feeling like living in DC was SO inconvenient because this was just a year after the Sept 11 stuff where we were, again, on lockdown. couldnt leave unless our parents came to get us and my normal 15-20 min drive home was 3-damn-hours. ugh! #thingsidontmissabouthighschool.

i would lose my head...

...if it werent attached. this semester is the height of too muchery and we are less than a month in! i pride myself as being an excellent student. never miss a deadline and i know when all assignments are due and i have them completed far in advance. the far in advance has been few and far between the past few semesters and non-existent this semester. i'm getting all the way to school and forgetting i need a blank dvd. duh! where are you going? what are you about to do once you get there? uh, school to RECORD a session with a client #fail! i sure did make that a twitter trending topic on blogger. i'm surprised i don't turn my assignments in with trending topics (i.e. "client has been clinically diagnosed with #depression"). do forgive me if i get to be lacking on the posts again. i have no social life, no money, and no man. and then i cant tell you anything interesting about what i'm doing seeing as how there are laws against sharing that info.

random

i wanna be in the studio while some songs are being made. how can i just be around with no clear purpose? i needed to be that random chick around when say..."run this town" was being recorded. like who's idea was it for rihanna to make that wailing sound? or like when a dude is singing about some lewd act in a high-pitch, i would have liked to have been there. who's responsible for that falsetto? and then i just wanna beat whoever thought akon sounds good and decided he needed to be featured on people's cds...

letter writing campaign

how come people dont write letters anymore? my friend from undergrad is in japan right now. i jokingly told her to send me something and she thought i was serious. then it turned into, "naw, im playing. just send me a letter or whatever". she got excited because she feels like i do: people suck now. yea, writing a letter is slow and i bet you could tell me what you had to say face-to-face or through some other faster medium but i don't care. i've always placed more importance on the written word. show someone you care by sending them a written note. your handwriting sucks? probably because you dont write anything anymore due to typing/texting. get back to practice!

is this something you've thought about? want a pen pal? i'll write you letters. and yes, i have poor penmanship because im guilty of not writing as much as i should. plus i'm left-handed and i'll forever use that as an excuse although i know more left-handed people with pretty handwriting than not.

for people who do stuff

since i may not (or i may, idk) be doing anything for my bday this year, i thought i'd share some suggestions for those of you who will celebrate. if your special day has already passed this year, you can always celebrate in my honor on the 2nd of october ;D anyway, i thought i'd put this out there in enough time prior to my bday b/c i share it with a great blogger (wanna know who? click the link). she might wanna use these.

1. go to a gay bar and watch the drag show*
2. go get a new, or your first, tattoo
3. drink martinis all night sex in the city style w/ your girls
4. visit a bar catering to an ethnicity other than your own (in my case; white, asian, latino, ethiopian)
5. find somewhere to ride a mechanical bull
6. take a local cruise tour
7. visit a vineyard and leave w/ a personalized wine bottle*
8. have a spa day

got something to add? leave it in the comments.

*i might actually use that one

my 21st bday (2007)

2008

in theaters

going to see this? i'd love to read your review. i always say im not going to watch tyler perry movies when they come out. i see the preview and im like "nope. i wont." somehow i've seen them ALL.

over a friend's house

: hey let's watch this.

me: damn, everyone is like 'yea'.

out of town w/ a group of friends and spot nearby theater

: why dont we go see that?

me: well, looks like i got no choice

and sometimes i'm just genuinely interested based on friends' reviews and i'll watch online or my parents buy it on dvd.

this one, i want to see b/c i LOVE MJB's non-acting ass and Taraji is pretty good plus she's from the area.

aside from individual actors, i do enjoy Tyler's getting increasingly better casts and storylines/scripts. i love watching a talented person's progression.

best kept secret

megsmakeup.com, have u heard of it?

if not, you are sorely missing out. you rack up points for commenting and sharing your beauty knowledge. in return for your participation in the community, Meg sends you a prize pack when you reach 50, 150, and 250 points. points are real easy to get (for simple things like filling out your profile). she sends pretty decent stuff. people have gotten stuff from popular lines like urban decay. one of several items i recieved was valued at $55 alone. so worth it to check out and join. just click the button below.

btw, meg is very sweet and responds directly to emails : )

AND, because you care, i'm 12 weeks post-relaxer as of today.

are these my only options?

fashion/beauty-wise the trends are 1940's/50's and 1980's. thats...about...it. i have like 3 september magazine issues and that's all they're showing me. i admit i thought the 50's hairstyles and bold red lip was cute last year and i still like it this year, but it's starting to get played out. and i havent even finished my mac russian red lipglass. i hope i can empty it quickly, b/c i really dont like walking around looking like a clone. and the 80's thing? im so over it. i was good w/ the 80's/90's party we had for senior week 2008. i can be done with the neon such now.

looks like the 80's will stick around a little while longer for me. i had the bright idea to already plan my halloween outfit while i still had money from working and my idea was inspired by a barbie i used to have. she was "workout barbie" or something and her arms and legs could actually bend. i decided i should be an 80's workout video instructor. october 31st marks the end of this 80's trend for me!

sorry the pic is so small. it was the only one i could find of the actual doll i once had.

makes scents

am i the only one who feels like most fragances smell the same? for men and women, there are like 3 distinct scents and then stuff just starts smelling like slight, undetectable variations. im referring to higher end stuff, not vickies and bbw. those have distinct smells that i mostly dont care for. just a random thought...

let me see some credentials

T wanted to know about this counseling training thing and i figured most others reading would be curious too. let me know if you have more questions and i'll answer what i legally can.

1. the clients i see are aware that the center is staffed exclusively by master's students providing counseling as a part of their training. they call just as they would call any other agency and undergo a screening to see if the campus center will meet their needs. i wouldnt say they are getting lesser service than they would at any other setting. trust, our supervisors' licenses are on the line so if we were subpar, they wouldnt allow us to do that work.

2. we are supervised by our instructor, a doctoral student, as well as the clinic director. our sessions are recorded on dvd and clients have the option of not having their faces shown. we make all attempts to maintain confidentiality.

3. services are provided on a sliding scale: you pay what you can. i think it's a dollar for every $1000 of income up to $30.

4. clients vary but are mostly students from the university, students from my old high school next door and people from the area who cant afford much else. therapy in DC is high!

5. for high risk/suicidal clients, we have a procedure in place and im sure it's similar to that at any other agency.

6. you can get therapy for less by finding a university counseling center or a community agency that offers a sliding fee scale. some counselors in private practice may accomodate you.

i think of it as analogous to an doctor doing residency or interning or whatever they do. we're backed by those with far more experience and clients are in good hands. some people arent ok with that and those are the people who get referrals to other established counselors. i dont see anything wrong with that either.

this week in the blogosphere

this is a new feature. here, i will link you to some of the week's best posts. you'll find weekly discounts/deals and beauty tips among whatever else i find interesting. i cant promise that this will be every week b/c i may not see anything all that great or i just might not have time.

• dan coleman celebrates black history everyday w/ this malcolm x speech on open culture
• luvvie talkss about twitter foolishness
• bellasugar tells you how to make your own bubble bath
• visit spoiled pretty for a review of lancome hypnose mascara
• get info on NY fashion night out from mischo beauty
• can suspenders ever be worn well? omiru let's us know the answer is 'no'
• temptalia gives GREAT tips for lining lash and water lines
• what's argan oil? antihairslave tells you here

movie of the month

september's movie of the month is Inglourious Basterds. i'm a quentin tarrentino fan. i loved pulp fiction and kill bill. i think i can add this to the list of favorites. this movie was right on time for me. somehow they got on the topic and my sister told me that my 12 year old niece didnt know what the holocaust was. like she knew nothing. the next day, my sister, mother, and i took her to the National Holocaust Memorial Museum (or whatever it's called). maybe she was too young b/c i recall visiting in high school and she's just starting middle school this year. she didnt have a huge appreciation for it but i figured it wouldnt be too bad. think of the kids who actually suffered through it. hello? anne frank? (side note: where is my copy of the diary? couldn't find it to give to my niece). anyway, i digress.

basically, i liked the movie. it had sad, funny, and suspenseful moments which is my idea of a perfect recipe for any movie. the person i saw it with didnt like it but we can seem to agree on much of anything. no, it wasnt based on reality but i guess you have to have some knowledge of the real life events in order to appreciate the film. for more info and a synopsis, visit: the official site.

what movie did you really enjoy this summer? i didnt see district 9 yet, how was it?

um...

i won the dr. miracle prize pack from the anti hair slave and it included a braid spray. it's supposed to be good for braids, weaves, and locks. does anyone want it? leave a comment or shoot me an email and let me know. if more than one person wants it, i'll randomly select them. i can send braid spray in the mail right? even if you dont want it, let me know the answer to that, too. thanks!

for the if in life

how well do you prepare for the unpredictable. i consider myself a planner but i tend to plan for things in the forseeable future. i often fall short. for instance, i knew my blackberry was in danger when i noticed the prongs on my chrome ring for the rollerball were broken. i planned what i would do: buy a replacemetn from amazon. but instead of actually following through, i waited until it fell out in a casino in atlantic city about a week later to take action. so a panicked chick didnt know how to use the damn phone without the stupid track ball til about 2 am the next day. my whole life is in that phone (not really). but my schedule for this week was in there and it would have taken a whole bunch of extra steps to recover the information found in one place from various sources. im still pretty upset i have to wait until who knows when for this little $5 item to come. there was no option to expedite so im relying on standard USPS shipping. fml.

we cant all be prepared for EVERYTHING but try to follow through with any plans you have "for the if in life".

1 month

one of my friends is stressing about what it is she will do for her 24th birthday, which is in a couple of weeks. i can be of little to no assistance. i really dont want to be because i feel like a birthday should be about what you want to do. i spent many birthdays trying to guess what other people would want to do and doing that and also waiting on other people on MY day. im not going to advise her on what to do. she needs to figure it out. i hope she knows she should do what she wants to and if she's worried about no one wanting to come, she can do something by herself.

it is 30 days until my 23rd birthday. i can tell you exactly what i'll be doing to celebrate this year: NOTHING. i dont like the number 23. i dont like odd number in general and this age is just not appealing to me. further, with my schedule and my bday falling on a friday, i anticipate being very tired. i wont leave internship until late that evening and while maxwell will be performing alongside chrisette michele, i just cant see myself rushing home, getting ready and feeling 100% in 1.5 hours to attend on-time. that week i will enjoy all the freebies from the various fat girl birthday clubs i am a part of: coldstone, baskin-robins, rita's, red robin, and a couple more i cant think of but you better believe i will have maybe 4 more all with emails to remind me. also, i'll go pick up whatever sephora has to offer (probably more of their brand lipgloss). but on the actually day, i will go to internship and go home. maybe my parents will have bought the traditional strawberry shortcake, flowers/balloons. maybe not. all i know is i have no plans and i really think i'll like it like that.

session 1: intake

today is what i consider the official start of my graduate practicum/internship. let me tell you a little bit of what my schedule is like. yesterday, i met with my supervisor to discuss my client. this 1.5-hour session is mandatory weekly. this is in addition to mandatory weekly 1-hour sessions with my off-campus site supervisor. im expected to work (unpaid) 20-25 hours per week at this site. on-campus, i will work 4 hours a week. this week, im lucky *sarcasm face* to be charged with administrative duties so i get to log about 2 indirect hours from that. i call today the official start because im getting the highly elusive and coveted DIRECT hours. these direct hours are extra awesome because it's an intake session. so instead of the regular 50 min sessions, intake is 90 minutes! that was a brief, and maybe confusing look at what my week looks like. dont forget to factor in the 3- 2 hr classes i'm enrolled in.

i'm actually pretty thrilled that i'm one of the only people who actually already has a client. as a worrier, if i were sitting around all semester without being assigned a client yet, i'd be scared i would not accrue my required hours and all the things that come along with that sucky situation. so since im starting to get my indirect AND direct hours, i shouldnt really complain, right? um, we'll see after i find out how this first week goes.

welcome week

today marks a day of return. i'm returning to my blog (maybe still sporadically) and it's back to school time. classes start and all hecticness begins for me today.

remember those staples commercials where the father is DELIGHTED that his kids are going back to school? ive gone from not thinking they were very funny to actually enjoying them but they still remind me of unpleasantness. they are my unofficial end of summer once they start airing. before, it was my own return to school that pissed me off. now, not only am i going back to classes (which isnt nearly as bad), i know that area kids are back in school. that means: louder/more crowded bus rides. not to mention my high school, located in the middle of my grad school campus, has finished being renovated and has re-opened. the area is crawling with rowdy teens and guess what? the building i'll be in most doing my practicum is literally next door to the school. almost touching!

what's practicum/internship? expect to see posts about the rigors of a counselor-in-training in the coming months. you'll know more than you want about how complicated they are trying to make my existence. unfortunately, i cant share anything with you that's confidential such as details about my clients. i know, that sucks b/c i really want ya'll to know some of this stuff, but i'll try and keep it interesting.

*delete*

if you have been following my updates on twitter, you know that for the past few weeks i've been "delete-happy" on facebook. for those who were my friends on facebook: no, i did not delete you. we'll, not directly. i deleted my account altogether. the people i continually omitted from my deleting spells were the same people who i regularly contact through other media. there was just no point of me continuing to frequent that site. after being on since like 2004, i was just over it. so there you have it. goodbye, facebook. unlike other times, i probably wont be coming back.

what you dont know is your own fault

things not explained to me prior to becoming relaxed/texturized/whatever-you-want-to-call-it:

1. if you are going to do anything other than wear your hair straight, you have to do your hair pretty much daily

2. your hair will always be DRY. there is not much you can do about it

3. products that made your natural hair look and feel good have no power over the chemical

4. 6-8 weeks go by quicker than you ever realized and that time period was selected for a reason

5. your new growth might scare you/hurt

6. you will somehow be more tenderheaded than before